This is a spontaneous post.
I wasn’t planning on writing anything today. Maybe because I spent the afternoon drinking and having really good conversations with old and new friends maybe I am on the mood to do so.
I am no one special. I don’t feel I am doing anything out of the ordinary with my life or anything that is changing the world. Nor do I want to. I am going through life at my own pace and my rules. Sometimes it feels lonely and unfulfilling and other time amazing and grateful. At this moment i believe i found a balance between what I want and what I have to do regardless of what others think. The more time passes the more I know what my priorities are and the more I know who I want in my life. I hate when people ask me why I am not doing or having something that is common to everyone else, like getting married, having a car, a house, kids, whatever. Trust me, I do sometimes think about those things myself but after 1 minute I realize it is just not me.
Would I like to have someone with me? Yes.
Would I like to have a way to go anywhere anytime I wanted? Yes.
Would i love to be responsible for another being? Absolutely.
But then I think of all the things I had to give up to. And at this moment, is just not me.
I do want to be with someone. I do want to have kids. I do want to go everywhere anytime I want. And call me a hypocrite but having this normal kind of life is not being successful or even happy for me. As I said in my previous post from Japan, one of the happiest moments in my life was waking up at 4:40 am to photograph Mt Fuji. And I know that in August once I finish the Tour du Mont Blanc with two of my friends that I will feel even happier and fulfilled than ever considering that I been planning doing it since 2013. This is what I look for. Adventures. Stories to tell.
Now imagine how i will feel when i finally do my Iceland road trip.
And yes I do think that all the other things are important. And I don't judge others for wanting them as long as they are happy. What I hate is when people try to “sell” me this idea that I am wrong. All I want to do is to live the way I want and the way I am.
Today I am 35 years old and I never felt happier and accomplished as I feel right now. Regardless of what others might think of me.
Everyone has to find their own path and success is not the same for everyone. I am being selfish because all I want is for people to stop asking me when i will be with someone one, buy a car, move to another place, etc. I want people to ask me when will I be going to Patagonia, Iceland, Madagascar or any other crazy location.
Travel and Photography are my priorities. All I do right now is to go somewhere new at least once a year and create new photos. Everything else is extra.
PS: Sorry if I sound angry and rambling. I am just passionate about this and this was something boiling inside of me for some time.